2 weeks!

Tomorrow will be two weeks since my surgery date! time sure is flying when you are having fun sitting on the recliner! ;) I had an appointment with my plastic surgeon Dr Rhee today he is the best, and I love everyone that works in his office! He took out my remaining 2 drains! FINALLY they were really getting on my nerves being pinned to my pants, and not being able to be fully covered by my shirts. So I drove myself to my appointment today, I called to be sure it was okay & as long as I hadn't had any pain meds and I felt I could react quickly enough then it was safe. So I jumped in the shower & headed there, it took a while to get there, I took the streets just to be careful. So I got there & he took my two drains out then told me he was going to "fill me up" I got really nervous, only because I had only taken tylenol and in order to fill my expander (the deflated implant that's in) a needle is stuck through my skin into a port and the saline in injected. At the time of surgery 300cc was put in, and told he put 40cc in each. I feel pretty big, but you have to remember I was only a 32A before surgery. I didn't feel when the needle was pushed in, the nerves in my boobies are all messed up. I can feel some things but most of the time I cant feel anything. After my fill I was planning on stopping at CVS to get my prescription filled for more percocet, but the pain in my arm arm started to get too bad so I just came right home. Had some lunch, took some meds and went down for a nap. gosh that sounds like a 2 year old lol. when I woke up I couldn't move my right arm, I got a little emotional, I'm sure has something to do with a nerve or maybe it just hurts too bad and I know this so I don't want to move it but I really was sad about not being able to move my stupid arm. this is really the first time that I was upset about the surgery. I think I was also upset because I drove myself to my appointment, I admit I didn't try super hard to find a ride, but It is so over whelming to ask ppl for help, to depend on people, I moved to Arizona almost 2 years ago, I packed up my bedroom from my parents house into my little scion and drove here, alone. I am very independent. and to get to a point where I cant drive, cant do laundry, and even put my hair in a pony! its horrible, stressful, kinda embarrassing, I know ppl understand that I cant do things and I have a reason its not that I do not want to I just cant do it! so I am grateful for the help that I do get and I hope my friends don't get offended by me not asking for help or turning down help. i love you guys and am very thankful to have help. my skin is stretching, and it feels so weird. its like peely scaly, I wish you could feel it. its so weird. oh & now that my drains are out I can take a shower whenever I want to! its hard to scrub tho, like my arms are too weak to reach over to the other arm and wash it. originally it was planned I would be off work 4-6 weeks, now talking to a dr at work, and a few others it may be best if I take more time off, maybe 8-12 weeks. I will be so bored but, I would much rather be bored than get an infection, or hurt myself by going back to work too soon! So far everything is looking good, I have no regrets, some pain but i can live with it. I am going to visit my parents and brothers this week, I need a break out of my apartment for a few days. & everyone back home will be able to come visit. the plane ride is only about 45 mins, and I wont take any clothes (cant carry a bag) my mom said she would just buy me a few outfits when I got there. I mostly hang out in yoga pants, sweats, and tank tops. The weather is warming up it was 88 on Sunday indeed flip flop weather :) LOVE IT! OUCH! i just hiccuped and it was not a nice feeling, I also hold back my yawns, sneezes, burps, and laughs as much as possible because those hurt too. Saturday I went to the movies, saw the new Tyler Perry movie good deeds. thank you again nikki for picking me up, treating me, and carrying my popcorn! it was a great outing! well I really don't have much else to say. questions, comments, concerns, please feel free to ask. I am trying my hardest to be an open book :) thoughts and prayers are still so greatly appreciated! Beyond Blessed!